"Inherent Deluge" emerges from a tumultuous chapter in my life, a period marked by the weight of judgment—both perceived and real. As I grappled with the overwhelming emotions tied to my experience with undiagnosed borderline personality disorder, I found myself ensnared in a cycle of self-critique, exacerbated by the imagined gazes of society. The swirling chaos in this painting reflects my internal struggle, a vivid representation of the emotional dysregulation that defined my days.

 

In this piece, the circles symbolize the relentless scrutiny I felt, representing the eyes of the world judging not only my actions but also my very essence. The layering of circles conveys the deluge of feelings that flooded my mind, illustrating the pain and confusion I experienced at that time. 

 

Creating "Inherent Deluge," alongside my work "Exposed," became a crucial part of my healing process. This piece allowed me to confront the chaos within and served as a powerful outlet for my emotions. Through this artwork, you will see a glimpse into a life lived with profound vulnerability and a soul overwhelmed with torment.